Whew! What a week! It's been busy, productive, frustrating, sad, happy, and pretty much every tumbling emotion you can come up with right off the top of your head. A bit roller coastery which isn't how I like life but roller coasters happen. Grab on and try to enjoy it while it happens. If you can't enjoy it, just try not to throw up! Wow, I should really put that on a T-shirt.
Back to school on Monday. I enjoyed the week off but I'm ready to start learning new things. I got my books yesterday and I'm pleased to report that both of them together weigh two pounds less than one of my books for one of my classes last quarter. Yes, I just randomly weighed my books for school. See what happens when you give me a week off?
I get caught up in the world of me pretty frequently. I don't remember if I bought the sticker in the picture above or if a friend bought it for me but either way, it was because it's a good description of me. I tend to feel the world revolves around me and most days you'd hear me say "and rightly so". I know this about myself and have tried very hard not to let that make me a completely centrally focused asshole. While caught up in the minutia of life, I don't always think about what I'm saying or how I'm saying it. I know I'm not alone in this, because many people have this problem. I'm not asking for a hallelujah or anything, just a little tilt of your head as you decide if this pertains to you as well. As I've grown, I've tried to learn to think before I speak. Sometimes the mouth engages before the brain. Out pops something unintentionally rude or offensive and I'm off and running before I even realize that it could have been hurtful or damaging to someone I love.
(Just a side note: This does not include when I'm being intentionally rude or offensive. I've mentioned before that goodness abounds but niceness is something you'd better get some place else!)
When I love someone, I do it with all that I am. I don't always do it right, but I do it the best way that I know how. I don't love easily and when I love you; that's it for me. I love you even when you're being a snotbucket or when you're bringing me azaleas because I was upset. Unless you endanger my child, shatter the lives of those I love, or physically harm my loved ones; you're kind of stuck with me. I will laugh with you, cry with you, pick you up when you fall, and help you bury the body. When I hurt you with careless words, especially ones that hurt you deeply, I will be devastated and beg for your forgiveness. It doesn't matter what the circumstances were, if I hurt you; I've done something that will eat away at me. I strive every day to never hurt those that I love (regardless of whether or not that is possible) and will do all I can to make their lives better.
I hope that you'll take a moment to think before you speak and remember that a careless word can hurt someone you love very deeply.
That is all.