Day Four of Reboot

I felt great yesterday after about 10am.  Did really well until about 8 last night.  Got the sweats and it was awful.  They lasted about an hour an then I was okay.  I'm super tired today but feeling better.  Down a total of 21 pounds.  So tired of arguing with Dave.  Just keep swimming, right?

Day Three of Reboot

Well, I don't feel quite like dying anymore. In fact, last night, for about two hours, I felt fantastic.  Like I haven't felt in years.  However, this morning not so much.  I'm a little scared as Becca came over to drop off Kimbo's lunch and apparently someone has attached a faucet to her ass.  Like, every 15 minutes she's in the bathroom.  I'm scared because she's little.  I'm not.  If this is a proportionate response, somebody call Roto Rooter folks.  Yep, I told you, honesty.  Will I ever do this again?  Ask me after it's over.  Right now I'd tell you no and probably maim you for a salad.  On the bonus, down 13.6 pounds since Monday morning.  I know this gets better but right now it feels like it never will.  It's like having the flu.  You feel like you're going to die, then you feel like it's never going away, and then one magical day; you feel better.  

Here's to waiting for the magical day. 

Peace.....and ....  damnit, all I can think of is a salad....

That is all.

Oops, no it's not.  I walked with Morgan last night even though I felt like hell.  Yay me and Yay Morgan!

That is all.

Really. 

For Sure.

Edit: 
I'm a liar. LOL  There is more.  Would I do this again?  Yes.  I was taking stock of my body this morning and reflecting on yesterday.  I hurt less.  Way less.  I still hurt like crazy but it's definitely less.  I slept for two hours straight last night (a small miracle) and I didn't wake up crying from the pain.  To give you some sleep background:  I sleep between four to five hours a night.  It's not all at once.  I get up at least once or twice an hour and I'm constantly moving even when I'm asleep (or so I'm told) because my pain level is so high.  A lot of people think four to five hours is a lot.  Some days, just getting out of bed makes me feel like I won a battle.  It's hard to move this body around all day, every day and not just stay in bed.  I do it because I have to.  I can't be that person laying in bed on Maury crying "I just couldn't get out of bed one day".  Nothing against those people but that won't be me.  So, if nothing else, to lessen my pain, yes I'll do this again.  I plan on keeping juicing as a part of my life even when I start easing back into real food again.  The energy you get from juicing is really cool, even when you feel horrid at first. 

Okay, I've rambled enough.  Enjoy your day and stay as awesome as you are. 
That really is all.

Day Two of Reboot

Do the words, Kill Me Now, mean anything to you? 

 

Okay, maybe I don't really want to die but holy crud, I feel craptastical!!!!  I know it will get better because veterans of the Reboot tell me it will.  I was feeling like the world's biggest pansy until Becca dropped off Kim's lunch and told me she felt the same.  YAY!  Sorry she feels like crap but glad I'm not alone.  

 

The toxins are definitely starting to get the idea that they aren't welcome here.  I just wish they'd be good house guests and leave in a subdued manner rather than making me feel like I've already died and they are dancing on my grave.  I swear, I'm peeing like every four minutes.  At least that's all I'm doing....shudder.  Yep, you'll be getting way too much information here on the Reboot effects.  

 

I don't know what else to say, mostly because I can't really complete a thought without getting distracted! lol 

 

Thanks for the support everyone!  You all rock hard and I know this is going to be great for me in the end.  Keep being the amazing people you are!

That is all.

Day One of Reboot

Here it is, day one.  This whole last week was interesting but a lot of it was anxiety about doing this.  Self doubts and negative thinking went along with some of it.  The rest was excitement because I know I will be feeling better.

Got up this morning, had orange juice because I had to go to the store.  Becca picked me up and we went to the Market.  GREAT produce their but a little spendy on some of it.  Hit up Trader Joes for the rest.  Yay for Becca helping me!  Thanks love!

Definitely getting a different juicer as this one has a very small chute.  It can't even take a full carrot.  No worries.  I made up my own juice for lunch.  Now, why I thought I would just throw together some stuff and it would work out (have you seen me cook?) and taste great is beyond me.  It tastes okay.  Needs some more apple and mint but I think it can be saved for the next time.  I read on the Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead facebook page a good rule of thumb for those nervous about getting started.  1 part leafy green.  1 part vegetable you don't particularly like.  1 part vegetable you like or tolerate.  1 part enough fruit to cover the taste of the vegetables! lol  I love it. 

I'll keep you all updated.  There will be ups and downs but I'll tell you what's what. 

Peace and Love.

That is all.

Two Saturdays

I finished school in October and said I was going to take six months off. Becca looked at me about a week ago and said "You're going crazy, aren't you?".  The answer to that is a resounding yes!  So I reapplied and will be starting school on January 17th.  Apparently three months is how long I can last without acquiring major deb...knowledge  I meant knowledge.  

This is probably going to be a pretty random post.  I have a lot sloshing around in this brain of mine and a need, a burning need, to get it all out.

Truth is something that shouldn't be so difficult.  You open your mouth and the truth should come out, but it doesn't.  This society has been built around half truths, omissions, and flat out lies.  When do we just say enough and tell the goddamn truth?  Quit the manipulations and the bullshit.  Don't lie.  Don't fabricate.  Don't omit.  That's it, just tell the truth and yes, your ass looks fat in those jeans.  

 

I have recently come to discover that I like being strong.  I have always regretted in some ways being strong because when you're the rock, who is your rock?  Well, I have those I consider rocks and I lean on them but I am strong.  I am capable.  I can handle the things that come my way because I am so strong.  I do not require the constant attention of others and in fact find a solace in being alone occasionally.  I know that were there nobody else, I could still make it.  I don't need to bind people to me with my need.  

Okay, I'm going to get this posted.  A lot going on in my head and it's not coming out right.  Maybe I'll let it keep rocking around in there.

That is all.

3 days to Reboot

It's 3 days until Becca and I start the Reboot Juice Fast.  I'm pretty excited/nervous about it.  I know it's going to be hard at first but the benefits are enormous.  If you don't know what I'm talking about, you should watch Fat, Sick, and Nearly Dead.  Fantastic documentary about Joe Cross and how he saved his own life, got off his medications, and is helping others do the same.

Wishing you a wonderful weekend.  I'll be doing daily updates for the 10 days of the Reboot.

Thank you all for all the support you throw my way!  

Peace and Love.

That is all.

Week 2 Update

Quite possibly the most stressful week in recent history.  Needless to say, I did not do what I needed to do and I'm back up to 503.6.  Back on track today.  I am so ashamed of myself.

Good things about this week:

Morgan and I started walking this week.  We're going to walk 3 days a week.  Thank you Morgan!

 

I drank my smoothie every morning.

Goals for this week:

Get back on track, eating wise.  Raw food only in the morning until 11am.

Start getting up at a reasonable hour instead of sleeping in.

Re-enroll for school.

I hope you all had a great New Year's Eve.

Have a Blessed 2012!

That is all.